It’s been so long since I sat down to write and I really have missed it. I figured since I had some time to myself briefly, I’d get back in the zone.
The last post I wrote was in August! With my job, usually August is my quiet month of the year and I was hoping to sit down and get a few posts out, however work became unbelievably busy and has been so continuously since then. So, on an evening, I’ve been completely wiped out and haven’t been in the right frame of mind to sit and pen some posts.
My mum has been very poorly with her declining health and it’s taken a toll on us. We’ve had health scares, her arthritis is getting steadily worse, and I feel as though my siblings don’t take that seriously. It’s been stressful balancing my life and responsibilities as well as making sure she has everything she needs. I’ve also lost and gained friends since August – a pattern this year. I truly feel 2018 has been a year of friendships. I really have realised a lot about my self-worth and who I want to surround myself with. I’ve learned to put my own needs first; I don’t need to accept poor treatment or to be around those who make me feel anything other than something good.
The biggest thing, however, is that we are buying a house! (I can’t wait to say “we bought a house!” – you can’t say that until you get the keys, sadly). We found a perfect house completely unexpectedly and fell in love. It has been such an incredibly stressful process so far, but I know the end result will be totally worth it and is keeping me focused. I refuse to let the experience be spoiled by things out of my control. So hopefully, we will have the keys in just a few short (okay.. maybe long) weeks! I hope to write a post on the process to help others out there who may be daunted at the prospect – but it is totally worth it!
I’m hoping that I can get back into regular writing again as I do enjoy taking some quiet time for myself and getting things off of my chest. My anxiety returned with a vengeance recently, after the stress of multiple things, and I think it might have been a good source of therapy if I’d have had the chance to sit down and write. I haven’t had anxiety for a few years – however with so much going on, and a lot of pressure with the house and other things that I had been worrying about, my emotions and mental health have been on tenterhooks. But now that a lot of the stressful situations are starting to ease off, I’m feeling much less smothered and can finally breathe again.
I just wanted to say thank you to the wonderful people who have been checking in and reading my content whilst I have been away. I don’t focus on numbers (it’s a good thing really, I’ve had basically none for 3 months!) – but I have been gaining new followers, and likes and comments on previous posts and it really has meant so much. I’ve had a crazy year and it’s not even over yet. I can’t wait to move into our new house, set up my office finally, and get down to some writing.
With love and thanks,